Sunday, October 17

get out of my head!

Another yoga reflection of the week...mind games. Does any of this sound familiar?

She's prettier than me. Crying is for babies. Showing emotion is a weakness. I look gooood today. I look gross today! I feel guilty for eating that brownie. I want to have a body like her. I wish my clothes were cooler. He has a better job than me. She's smarter than me. Why can't I be more popular? I need to go tanning. I need to achieve more. Why don't I have my life plan set? I should have a better job by now. I should have more money by now. I should be married by now. I should have kids by now.  

Who says our mind (aka our upbringing + societal influence + culture + life experiences) is in charge of deciding how we feel today and if we're on the right track? What is the "perfect body"? What is the "right job"? What are "real achievements"?

If your answers are any of the following...we've got some work to do... 
There's something deep down inside of us that says - THIS WORLD IS BOGUS! There's a part of us that just wants to love and accept every part of ourselves (no matter if society says that part isn't "good" or "good enough"). How can we let that element of ourselves guide us to self love? 

I feel like it's as very easy and as extremely hard as looking deep, listening and believing.    

Sunday, October 10

finding time

Glee's music is inspiring my finding time to get back on's been too long since I've written - and how can you not want to sit by in front of your computer with awesome music helping you jam out?

First excuse for being distant - bridesmaid duties for this handsome couple...I don't know why I'm jealous that they're honeymooning in Costa Rica. I guess somehow their trip seems much more exotic & amazing than my Mexican adventures! 
Second excuse - The intensive yoga training class has been incredible so far. But when they say intensive they mean it! I've meditated and am halfway through a yoga practice before the SUN RISES. Hardest part of the whole thing so far is to rival our teachers' good attitude and energy when I know their job is much harder than ours. We do have a good amount of physical yoga in classes but the bulk of the day is dedicated to study...and I am finding that the studying is the most inspiring part (even more inspiring than my increasingly impressive pipes...)

Favorite topic from the week is one of the Niyamas (aka recommendations) of yoga: samtosha - contentment. Imagine you're in the middle of two minutes in warrior 2...
Are you mentally cursing your instructor while clenching your teeth or can you take a deep breath and put a little smile on your face? I feel like a lot of our lessons are coming a few months late - one example being when I was freaking out about Jaime's visa. Maybe I could have found a way to work samtosha into my life instead of being a drama queen/ball of nerves? I'm going to work on it because the only thing we can control in difficult situations is our attitude and our response to stress/sadness/anger... It's going to be the homework of my life - because this girl's favorite thing to do is to think she's in charge!